So, day 2 of my blog, overwhelmed at the support I have received with my latest venture. Which has really made me think about the support I receive in general. Actually, I think about that all the time, it just sounded like a good link.

I would like to dedicate today’s blog to friends, not all friends, as some are not always by your side and live far away. I mean the friends that are close to you, geographically, the others I will comment on in another post.

I have the most amazing group of friends and without them, this blog, let alone my existence would not be here.

I have gone through life finding it difficult to build female friendships, quite why I am not sure and my husband, family members and friends all have a variety of opinions on this matter. However, I currently find myself in the most fortunate position of having more (female) friends in my life than I have ever had before and I cannot tell you how grateful I am. I feel loved, supported, empowered, appreciated and respected, I did not believe you could ever feel all those things individually, let alone at once!

The last couple of years have been particularly difficult for me but somewhere in the universe it was decided that the anti should be upped and the last 2 months have seriously taken the biscuit. Not only have I undergone 2 (almost) major hip ops but numerous other situations have occurred, not to be divulged – to protect the innocent. Nevertheless, these circumstances have put me right on the edge of survival, once again. So much so, I ran away on New Year’s Eve, without so much as a goodbye, no-one  knew where I was or whether I was safe but the voice in my head was louder than that of a logical solution, so I went. Bedlam ensued and eventually I was found, all was well and no-one was hurt. And the reason I mention this? Not one of my friends bat an eyelid, they all know and understand what I have been through and how I am feeling but even better than that, they didn’t sweep it under the carpet as if it hadn’t happened, they spoke to me about it, they tried to see how they could help me. Now the chances are that they wouldn’t have been able to because for any of you that know what it is like when you mind says enough, against your better judgement, no-one can really help but the thing is they tried. Now that, my friends is worth it’s weight in gold.

In fact, I would go so far as to say that not only do I dedicate this post to my friends but also my life. I have received so much love, support, care, encouragement and trust in the last couple of months that I feel reborn, and I don’t mean in a biblical sense, I mean that, despite the fact I battle with constant demons in my head telling me I am no good, not worth it, not capable etc I have a group of friends that beg to differ and are prepared to take on that demon head on and do what they can to keep it at bay. That is was I call friendship, no judgement, no conditions just being there.

To my dearest friends, you know who you are, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I thank you for being by my side, in my thoughts and in my heart. You keep me sane, you keep me alive and for as long as I have you, I will be eternally grateful.

Please feel free to make comments, even about my spelling and grammar, I may be unstable but I am not particularly precious.